what's in a name?

well pretty much everything, right?
as this little baby e has been moving and grooving more, so i can feel it i guess...i have started to think more about names for this little baby. who will be here sooner than i know it. i'll be 20 weeks on FRIDAY!! where has the past 20 weeks gone?!? and if they flew by this fast the next 20 (probably less) are bound to fly by even faster...

as our 'big' ultrasound approaches...next week!! i've started thinking even harder about names. of course i'm a bit 'limited' with having to start the name with an 'e'. but still there are a TON of e names when you really get looking.

here are some girl and boy names that i like so far::

boy:
ezra (i really like it because it's not too common of a name. and i've met a cool ezra once. :0) )
elijah (i really like elijah. but also like eli...and wouldn't want elijah to BE eli)
eli (read above...so i think that cuts both names out)
elias (like it. don't love it.)

girl:
emilee (i've always loved this name! and i have a cousin named emily, so i changed up the spelling.)
evaleigh (i had never heard this name until a few weeks ago, and fell in love with it. with short e sound)
eva (with long e. shaun really likes eva, but doesn't care so much for evaleigh. i like evaleigh better.)
eden. ( i really like it. but then i'm not sure. this one is sort of wishy-washy)
emery or emerson (i like them. but don't love them)

and then there's a middle name. i have a thing with having at least one of the names of the kids "mean something"...for instance:

amelya (my grandma's middle name) francis (shaun's dad's middle name)
breigh (no family meaning) mayann (mae is my mom's middle name, ann is my middle name and shaun's mom's middle name)
caitlyn (no family meaning...but i always LOVED it) michaela (shaun's middle name is michael)
dustin (shaun's brother's middle name) russell (my dad's middle name)

i've already told shaun that if he wants to pick a middle name for the baby he can. because sometimes i feel like i can be a 'name nazi' and take over. we always pick together but i know that i can influence him. :0) he hasn't really said anything.

i would love to name a baby after one of my grandpa's. his name is hilary martin.  since i usually pick the middle names of the people i've been working with martin. personally i LOVE how ezra martin sounds for a boy. it's hard for a girl because there isn't really a 'girl' form of martin. but there is a different version of spelling in the boy section of: marden. i think marden can be girly. and has a softer sound because of the d. so i've been thinking of using marden for a girl. evaleigh marden sounds pretty i think. almost like garden. and gardens are pretty. :0)

shaun's one grandpa's name was joe. i was thinking if he wanted to use joe we could. and ezra joseph sounds good. as does evaleigh jo. so we'll see. basically it depends on if shaun wants to use his grandpa's name or not. it doesn't matter a whole lot to me. i just want one of the names to come from family, since that's what we've been doing. so we'll see.

and after next week our decision as to boy or girl...*should* be cut in half. we are pretty sure that we're sure we're going to for sure find out next week. i just haven't decided if we're telling (we didn't with dustin) or if we are going to tell that we'll keep the name a secret....or that we'll just tell it all. i don't know. and i have a bit to think about it.

so yeah. that's my thoughts on the whole name thing. i can't believe that i'm almost 'done'. i mean really! i've been feeling more pregnant lately...and it's been fun. minus some of the back pain...thankfully the chiro has been helping with that. my headaches are also pretty much in the past now...and i attribute that to the weekly visit to the chiro as well. i've also been getting heartburn once and awhile. i only ever had it with dustin, and the 'old wives tale' rang true...he had hair when he was born...well a lot of hair for one of my kids!! so we'll see if it happens again.

some people have asked if this is it. or if we plan on having more. and i can confidently answer in saying..i don't know. :0) when i was pregnant with caitlyn i was done having kids. you see where that has ended up! we decided to leave it in god's hands and we'll go from there.  i really truly feel he'll tell us when we're 'for sure' done. so until that happens...i don't know. but i will say i've had two dreams where i tell people that we're going to have one more...so we'll see!!

**i also want to thank all of you who read my post below and could either relate, pray for, or just get 'something' from it. and thank you if you made it all the way through it..it was a doozy!**