new year, new look!

well i had to change the christmas look on the blog, so i went with winter. and since i live in wisconsin...this look can probably be up til may. :0)

so i also wanted to touch on some of my favorite posts throughout the past year. or do a review of things i guess. i went back and read most all of my posts...it was fun!!

so January: it was a crazy month. i had my testing done on my thryoid. got not so good news back. and then had my biopsy done! i also had to pump and dump for an entire two days!! and started cloth diapering!!

February: got the great news back...NO CANCER! and shaun and i did a fun thing for valentine's day. we wrote each other vows. it was so fun to read them again. and it reminded me of the vows i made for him, like 'making out' more (i think he forgot i promised that too!) and how i'd support his dreams even if it meant moving to iowa or minnesota. he's always had a thing for iowa and then last  year when we went to minnesota he wanted to move there. he just likes the big ole farms there. we've never been to iowa, but minnesota was nice. i still tell him, whatever god leads you to do. ((even if it seems scary)) it's cool too because i found the vows he wrote me in my bible the other day and we read them together. it was fun!

March: Amelya turned FOUR!! wow. i got my haircut. (not that big of a deal, but it made me feel 'pretty') we got to see third day. (a totally awesome concert) brandon heath and revive were there too. :0) and i got a few 'mean'/'negative' comments. grrr. i haven't had any for awhile so either people are nicer or i'm just not ticking anyone off. (ha. right. that'd be the day)

April: i turned 26. and handled it okay. :0) i also bought my first digital slr camera, the nikon d90. and i'm still so in love with it. i found out i was going to be an auntie. and i also found out WE were going to have a baby. and a random stranger gave me a gift card for $50 for groceries. the girls had their very first dance recital and i held it together and didn't bawl. even though they were SO cute!

May: got to host some fun cloth diaper giveaways. finally announced we were expecting. dealt with a mean comment about that. saw our babies heartbeat. and three days later saw our baby enter the gates of heaven. shaun and i celebrated 10 years together. wow. (that one is still crazy to believe) and decided to start my own business with wildtree.

June: wildtree started (and continues) to go well. breigh turned THREE! i got to giveaway some more cloth diapers and some super cute hats!! and not much else happened in june. sure if you go back and read it i blogged quite a bit...but it's mainly just rambling.

July: they picked our peas. and we dealt with rude people. we took the kiddos to bay beach for the first time. we drove a few hours to meet a blogging buddy on a family road trip from virginia. struggled with some dark times for me, and actually admitted it. found out we're expecting again!!

August: had an ultrasound. showed no baby. had to go through 'this' AGAIN. wildtree continued on well. struggled with some more dark times and kept on keeping on. had a church baptism at the beach. went on a well deserved 'mini' vacation to an indoor waterpark with just the kiddos. too the 'pill' to get 'this' overwith.

September: because two doses of the cytotec didn't work went in for a d & c. found out our baby was a baby boy with quite a few 'issues'. but it was fun finding out he was a he. (speaking of him, he really needs a name. we've been talking and praying about it for awhile) started preparing for our family trip out east!! caitlyn turned TWO!

October: went on our first ever family trip!! and had SO much fun. went to an awesome church in cleveland. and visited a fun apple orchard. met a great friend and her family in connecticut. saw the ocean in rhode island. drove to nyc. met up with an 'old' friend. and then as fast as the trip came...it was over! dustin turned ONE!! my sister had her baby...six weeks early! and on the very last day of the month...found out we were expecting again!

November: aryssa came home from the NICU. felt completely sick. had my hcg numbers tested and they rose. had an ultrasound. decided to 'tell'. celebrated 6 years of marriage. continued to feel sick and tired and couldn't be happier.

December: had a doctor's appt. got to see baby e again. everythin going well. still feel sick. slacked on the blogging thing. gave away some more fun stuff. had a good christmas with the kiddos. celebrated new  years with some fun friends.

and now we're to this year. 2010. crazy.

ten years ago i was almost 17 and looking forward to finishing off my junior year of high school. and ten years from now i'll be almost 37 and have a 14,13,12,11,10,8 year old kiddos. wow. (and who knows maybe there will be more to that list of kiddos)

for now i'm concentrating on today.

i have so much more on my heart. but think it needs a seperate post. well actually i started it a few weeks ago and just haven't finished it. so i hope to do that soon. i think it's something that should be shared. and will be hard for me to share all at the same time.

but for now i'm off to...well i don't know what. probably start thinking of something for supper.

and before i do, i want to give a huge shout out to my hubby. (who i don't think reads this, but deserves it anyways) (but he does read my facebook...but refuses to get his own!!) i was feeling really sick on friday and all weekend, and he got so much done around the house. last week overall was a really bad 'pregnancy' feeling sick week and i didn't do much of anything at all. like seriously we were out of forks and plates. so even though he didn't get much sleep new years and worked half a day new years day...he came home and did so much for me. and i didn't even ask him. or tell him. or hint at him. he just did it. so thankful for him.
we started a new devotional for couples for the year. it's a 'weekly' one and will last us 52 weeks, so all year. and last's nights was so fitting. it talked about the 'fog' of life getting in the way of your marriage and taking your eyes of each other and the 'prize'. we have a lot of stuff going on right now and it's so cool because we're doing such a good job at keeping it 'out' of our marriage and dealing with it as best as we can. it could possibly bring changes for us. but right now we're waiting on god for a clear answer. the only answer we get right now is wait. so we keep on keeping on...even if we don't understand much of any of what's going on. ANYWAYS...

have a great day/night/etc. and i'll be back sometime....of course i still haven't posted pictures, but breigh, caitlyn and dustin's picture in the header is from their haircuts. the picture i have of amelya she looks like a beaver (from the haircut...her words not mine) so i used one from christmas. :0)