happy breigh-day

my little breigh-breigh.

today you turn four. i can't believe you're four already!!

i'll say, when we found out we were expecting a mere seven and a half months after amelya was born we were shocked. and nervous. as the nine months passed and you grew and moved and shook in my belly i got less and less nervous, and knew this was all meant to be.

you were so super nice to me during labor. it was short, sweet and to the point. the video proves it when you hear me say: i just farted her out. the nurses oogled over your precious round head. seriously. they did. and i oogled over my second baby girl.

life with two baby girls was fantastic. the transition was a transisition. but it wasn't that bad. not nearly as bad as i thought. you fell asleep to the sound of the vacuum. you ate well. and were a great baby. amelya loved to hold and kiss you. and i knew you were going to be the best of friends.

and of course when YOU were seven and half months old...we were expecting again. i wasn't as nervous this time. i knew we could do it. however i thought that we'd be adding a brother to the bunch. i was covinced we were having a little brother. but it was a sister. and you and amelya make the greatest big sisters to caitlyn.

so great in fact we thought we may as well add more, okay really...THAT part was God, but nonetheless. you got a brother out of the deal. i love watching you play with dustin. and try to teach him things. and play trucks with him. you're a great big sister.

and i know you'll be a great big sister to 'miss evaleigh'. you talk about her all the time, and ask me where she is in my belly. and give her hugs and kisses. and of course you're always finding clothes that you think 'miss evaleigh' will want to wear.

you, miss breigh, are my little girly girl one second and my little 'tomboy' the next. you love to be an excellent mommy to  your baby dolls. but of course when you go in the tractor they have to come along. you can ride in the tractor for hours with your daddy. i love watching you and daddy in the tractor together.

you are my 'why' child. and it's one thing i love about you. you want to know so much about everything. it's been so much fun watching you grow and learn so much in the few months we've been doing school. i love seeing the 'sparkle' in your eyes when you 'get' it. and how you try and try and try again until you do get it.

one thing i forgot to get you for your birthday is gum. you love gum. and you chew it all day. during meals. i forget you have it. until after we're done eating and you're STILL chewing it. thank you for freaking out if you lay down in bed with it though!!

breigh. i love you. there's no way to tell you how much. i just pray that you know i love you and never get sick of hearing me tell you! you make me smile every day. you make me realize what being a mom is like every day. you are you, and i love that about you.  you don't care if plaid and dots and stripes and flowers don't go together. you wear your outfit with pride. i LOVE that.

don't lose that confidence you have. don't be afraid to sing the 'B-I-B-L-E' whenever and wherever you want. don't be afraid to love Jesus and tell people. and pray for people. and don't be afraid to ask Him for the things you need. it's so cool when you tell me 'don't worry jesus will help us find it'. when we lose something. i love that.

don't lose it. the only thing i can promise you and your sisters and brother is that Jesus will never leave you. or forsake you. He is the only constant in your life. just make sure you let Him be. mommy and daddy will fail you sometimes, Jesus never will. trust in Him always, and this crazy life will be a bit easier.

i love you miss breigh. and pray that your birthday is everything you hoped it to be. even if you have to go get shots on your birthday. :0)

love,

mommy