lazy day

saturday is a lazy day at our house. i got to 'sleep in' til seven. which really isn't sleeping in at all. but shaun got up with breigh and amelya at 7:10 and i got to sleep til 7:21 when dustin woke up. so i guess it's sleeping in compared to shaun...who is now sleeping with breigh on the couch. so not fair!!

so if you follow my twitter, and if you don't WHY NOT?!? lol. but anywho dustin, my FIVE WEEK old son ROLLED OFF HIS BELLY on thursday. i COULD NOT believe it. he made it look so easy. i was just in shock as i looked into his blue eyes while he layed on his back. he hasn't been on his belly much since, so it may have just been a 'fluke' but i don't know. he is a mover and a shaker. so for now i'm just a proud little momma.

we spent thursday evening at my aunt and uncle's house for thanksgiving. it was a nice little get together. except for a comment my grandpa made. argh. we get there and he wants breigh to come by him IMMEDIATELY...well if he would KNOW my children he would've KNOWN that they are shy at first...and amelya usually stays shy, breigh warms up...at least he went after her. so anyways THIS is what he said. 'well they only see me twice a year.' ahhh. so NOT true. in the past MONTH this is the THIRD TIME they have seen HIM!! so unless a year is only 30 days... ahh. god kept my mouth shut and i didn't say anything. my mom took breigh over there and he grabbed breigh OFF MY MOM'S lap and made her sit on his. she whined the whole time, til he finally put her down...and she RAN TO ME. ahh. i felt so bad. i understand that maybe he doesn't see them as much as he likes, BUT he knows where we live and he knows my number if he'd like to have us over for a visit. there are some underlying issues why i just don't visit myself...i don't feel like going into ALL of them right now. but we've never been close to those grandparents. first off they make it hard to get close to them. i just keep trying my best to love them like god wants me to. and i will admit, those are a few of the people i struggle to 'love' how i should. and truthfully after christmas they do see my kids less, and me less i guess...but it's their own faults. THEY quit doing something for my great-grandma's birthday/easter and THEY quit having everyone over for father's day. SOOOO when would he expect to see us then. i just don't know. sorry rant all about this, but this is my blog and that's what i wanted to do. :0)
so we didn't get home til late thursday. shaun had to work in the morning thursday and then friday he put in a well over full day, like 12 hours...that's a different rant...

friday me and my mom and sister, and dustin, went shopping. i got the girls almost completely done. i also got a few other things for some other people. it was a nice day shopping. we met up with my grandma and aunt for lunch and a couple of storse too. where did we eat? oh that's right HU HOT. yum. i so love that place. my super great friend melissa watched the girls for me. i didn't ask her until late thursday afternoon and she said yes! i was so grateful for her to watch them, otherwise i wasn't going to be able to go. the girls had fun at maddie's house. i feel bad though because amelya wouldn't talk to melissa all day. melissa said that amelya said about two words all day. ahhh my shy child. but i guess i'd rather have her be quiet than crying. i also paid a baby sitter for the FIRST time yesterday. lol. when i asked melissa to watch them i told her i was going to pay her. i didn't know exactally WHAT to pay. but she watched all three of my girls, ages 3, 2, and 1. and then her girls are 2 and about 9 months. she watched them from about nineish until almost 630. so that's a FULL day. i figured that 100 bucks would do. so that's what i paid. now mind you most of the time family can baby-sit so i don't need you all lined up at my door wanting to watch my kids next time. lol. i'm sure 100 bucks was a little more than i should've paid. BUT it was last minute and ALL day. AND i was SO SO SO grateful to have someone i trusted watch my girls. that's the major thing.

oh guess what?!?! i started picking up the girls' room. i have all of caitlyn's clothes in a DRESSER not piles on the floor. woo hoo. i have most of breigh's clothes separated in to piles of winter and summer stuff. i'm getting there. and this is way sooner than my ONE YEAR goal i gave myself of getting my ENTIRE house presentable. now i guess there are three other rooms that need 'work' but this is a start. we're going to get breigh a toddler bed tonight. she picked a dora one out online. so that's what we're going to get her. i'm a little nervous that she'll quit taking naps though. that's when amelya quit napping, when we moved her into a toddler bed. but we'll see. then caitlyn will take breigh's crib. and then when dustin is ready to move out of the bassinet he'll get the extra crib we have. that also means shaun will have to clean out his bedroom. yep i said his bedroom...as in the one from when he was a kid, well actually he slept in it up until the night before we were married. so it needs a bit of cleaning out. he worked on it awhile back, but now it has some more stuff in it and needs some more work. that room will be dustin's room. and IF IF IF we have anymore babies and it's a boy it'll be 'their' room. and IF IF IF we have any moer babies and it's a girl...i think we'll be moving out of our room and having the four girls share a room...ahh i'm talking about more babies again...

monday i have my six week check up. maybe that's why babies are coming up. because that'll be when i REALLY need to think about our 'plan of attack'. i've researched and know for sure an IUD will not be an option. an IUD KILLS any fertilized egg. if we go on birth control and i would end up pregnant...i would WANT the baby. not want it 'killed'. so that's where i'm at with that for now. i don't know. the fertility awareness plan looks good...but ummm self control isn't so good on this end. :0) tmi. sorry. but how else do you think we got dustin. ONE TIME out of TWO that nothing was used. i figured it out a 33% chance we had. umm yeah. again tmi. sorry.

well i suppose. we're going to be leaving soon. soo i'll leave you now before i go into more information. lol. we're celebrating thanksgiving with shaun's mom and sisters tomorrow...so i'll probably see you again for not me monday. woo hoo. i've thought of some good ones this week. if i can remember them for monday? we'll see.

short sweet gotta love it.

happy turkey day...it's still that yet. so my friend posted and said the pics didn't work for

amy's photos so trying it again. password is AG11808C and it's under Kolbe wedding. anywho. that's all i really wanted. we had a busy day, kind of. and i'm tired now. plus i'm crazy and going shopping tomorrow with my mom and sister. the girls are going by 'maddie's house' and i'm bringing dustin along...with nursing it's just easier. so i guess that's all. short and sweet. gotta love it. :0) oh wait...GAGE IS HOME!! woo hoo. praise the lord. alright now that's all.

an award...feeling SO loved

awww. Jill presented me with an award!! i am so super excited. thanks so much!

"This blog invests and believes the PROXIMITY - nearness in space, time and relationships! These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated."

those are the 'rules' of this award. i picked some of my 'new' mommy friends to give this award to soo here are my awardees. if that's right. and if that's a word. (oh and some of my new mommy friends already had the award...so i gave it to those who didn't already have it...i LOVE all my new mommy friends just the same and am SO very thankful for all of you)

renee over at life with my special k's

jessi dawn over at intense blessings

stephanie over at life is a miracle

beth over at meet the parmers

julie over at counting our blessings

honey mommy over at (you guessed it) honey mommy :0)

shara over at season's of a common housewife

michelle over at her cup overfloweth

rachel over at i used to be a perfect mom

okay i know. i have lots of new mommy friends. and i've been so blessed to get to know these mommys over the past few months of my blogging. i am so LOVING every minute of it. it's so cool to get to know people whom i would've never met otherwise. so that's one thing i'm so thankful for this thanksgiving...new blogging buddies.

sooo with the thanksgiving theme here are my other things i'm so very thankful for, and first off i'm thankful i've been blessed with the paitence to LOAD these pictures. :)

my hubby and my little caity bug

my little amelya

my little breigh

and my little guy dustin of course

and never mind you that red spot on dustin's head...he has a small case of cradle cap and i have a small case of "i like to pick at anything that is pickable". :0)

so i'm also so very thankful for my friends (in the not blogging world) and my family. and most importantly my relationship with the lord. i've lost that paitence i've been blessed with. and breigh's up and wants to cuddle...it's hard to do at a desk. and i, well, would like to cuddle with her. :0) so happy turkey day if i don't talk to you before that. oh wait one more thing...gage

could possibly be going home today!!??!! isn't that so awesome. for those of you who don't know his story, go check it out. it's one worth being thankful for. and i'm so very thankful that we get to know him (and his mommy and daddy) personally. our god is so good. alright..off to cuddle now. for real this time. :0)

blog stalker?

hmm. found a new blog...all for people who like to blog stalk. sooo as creepy as stalking may be...i have to admit i AM one :0) here's their site if you wanna join the fun fun fun too!!

that's all i really have to say this morning. i know after my super long post yesterday you're very surprised!! the girlies had fun at the parade, we didn't get to see them on tv though. shaun and i had a nice quiet time at home...and i got so excited that the BLACK TEAM survived another week on biggest loser. i'm rooting for them. the blue team, well vicky, is just kinda mean.

story time fun today! maybe i'll come back later...toodles...

dishes in the sink and laundry to do...

...BUT my girlies aren't home and dustin is sleeping...soooo i can BLOG. lol.

shaun's sister picked up the girls for the appleton christmas parade. i thought she was going to take the older two...but took all three! cool. i'm sure they'll enjoy it. i've never been to the parade, we keep having babies who are too little to go. so lord willing next year we won't have a little baby and i can go. now we'll see if it happens.

i think and that's a BIG think we'll have one more baby. lol. i know dustin is a month old and we're thinking about NUMBER FIVE!! my only 'fear' is that we'll try for 'one more' and have twins. now twins would be fine. but SIX kids sounds crazy. but most people already think we are crazy anyways. might as well prove them right. lol. but then...okay i've been thinking too much...if we have twins i have a dilemma. do i name them both 'e' names or do an 'e' and an 'f' name. i know. crazy. not only am i thinking about more babies but stressing about their names!! and then i think 'f' name. hmmm. f is kind of a hard letter to think of names for. the only one i have thought of so far for a girl is fiona. and i don't know if i'd 'go' with that. it's the only one i've thought of. have yet to be as crazy as crazy can be and look in the baby name book though. lol. i probably will eventually.

for 'e' names. IF we have another baby and IF it's a girl...two big IF'S. i'd have to go with emily. but spell it emilee. only because i've always LOVED the name. and i already have a cousin named emily. and i'm breaking my 'naming my kid someone else's name in our family rule' but i LOVE the name. i've thought in the past of 'emma leigh' but emma is just too popular. because emily isn't. ha. but i love emilee spelled that way. so that's what it would be.

a boy name you ask? well i really like elijah. i also like eli. so i'm posed with the issue of naming him elijah and calling him eli. or just naming him eli. because with amelya we picked amelya but were going to call her mya (pronounced me-a) well after she was born i hated mya. i wanted amelya and amelya only. so that's what happened. so i don't want to say we're naming them this but calling them that. because it may very well NOT happen.

it's funny though because breigh we call breigh-breigh...don't even know how that started. it did and it stuck. caitlyn is called caity sometimes...or cakey or caker baker or caity bug. i call her caity bug a lot. dustin is dustin. nothing else. i don't care for dusty. and actually stopped my mom from calling him that. i felt bad for 'yelling' at her. but i don't want him to be called dusty. i like dustin and that's that. and poor amelya is just that amelya. lol. because it's a bad thing. i call her amelya bedelia sometimes. but not a lot. oh well. it's a beautiful name.

she was named after my grandma who i was so very close to. i miss my grandma a lot. she was our baby-sitter, no day care, just grandma's house. and we had so many special times with her and my grandpa. sometimes i hate that i'm not that close to my other grandparents.

my other grandparents are, well, i don't even know what to say. they can be nice, but also very rude and even mean. my dad has not shared a lot of his childhood with me. but one thing i do know is that my dad had to call the cops to the house a NUMBER of times on my grandpa because he was hurting my grandma. he was/is...it's more like is...and alcoholic. probably wouldn't admit to it, but he is. he can be nice, but it almost seems like a 'fake nice'. i love them the best i can, and because god tells us to love everyone. but really they make it hard to do sometimes. so i know a lot of 'stuff' has gone on in their family, most i probably don't even want to know. but i'm led to believe my grandma was as nice as her mom, brother and sisters are, but then married my grandpa and he turned her into a 'hard' person. we got an anniversary card from them this year too. i was amazed. it was a really nice thing. and i was actually very touched that they remembered. so see...they do things like that, but then say rude things like "you look pretty good for just having a baby". so who knows. all i know is that i'll keep loving on them, praying that they will turn to christ and praying that they see the light of christ through me.

this week at church priscilla, the pastor's wife, announced they want to 're-vamp' children's church. i'm so excited for that. for those of you who don't know we currently attend a home based church, calvary chapel new holstein:hungry hearts ministry. right now children's church is held in a sunroom off the back of the garage. church is held in the basement. but they want to redo something in the house for the kids. i'm so excited. priscilla said she wants the kids to all be excited to go to church and sad when they leave. and then we can pray that the 'hunger' for that stays as they get bigger. i know the girls enjoy church a lot already and will so be enjoying church even more after the 'revamp'. i love our small fellowship. although it's growing as of recently. friends of ours and their two kids have started coming. it's been awesome to see the growth in them already. and their daughters fit well with ours. amelya and breigh love seeing maddie even more than they already do. and maddie loves seeing 'breigha' she calls them that. they are 'one' name and 'two' people. lol. we've also had a few other 'new faces' lately. and they're the 'younger generation' so it is nice to have people more our age at church too. i'm so excited to see god work through our small fellowship and who knows maybe some day provide a building to have church in. but i must say it'd be weird to go to church and not hear a dryer running occasionally or water running through the plumbing above our heads. :0) serious. it would be weird. we attended a calvary in appleton until we moved services here to sundays. i loved attending appleton's service too, so i was sad to quit going, but it's nice to be a bit closer to home too. so any of ya'll out there who are close and wanna check out our basement church please feel welcome to come!! there are always open chairs. :0) serious. come. you'll wanna come back.

my sister gave me her photographer's cd of their wedding pics. i've edited some. oh it's fun. i think because dustin is still sleeping...and the dishes and laundry will STILL be there later...i'm going to edit some more. so toodles. and make sure you check out my other post from today if you're still looking for some gifts for someone or you!! :0) thanks. loves loves and more loves.

you know you wanna...

...at least i'd love it if you did.

for those of you who don't know. i am a lia sophia advisor. since having dustin i have yet to do a home show. because of being 'inactive' for a few months i'm about to lose my 'active' status. which just means they quit sending me things. i plan on 're-starting' my business after the first of the year...BUT need to send in something before the end of fiscal December...

soooo that's where you all, my friends??, come in. i know that most of you don't even live near or by me...but i'd love any and all orders. for anyone who does order far far away...i'll send you your order...at my cost. and how's this...the person who places an order from the furthest distance...we'll win a prize!! how's a $20 gift certificate for lia sophia sound??

here's the "rules"
i'd like all orders before december 10th, my website says the 6th, but really i'll give you a few more days than that.
so your order, if you place an order over $40 you'll get $5 off your order. for every $50 you order, you'll go in a drawing for a $25 gift certificate...so order from furthest away AND over $50 and you'll be in for TWO drawings...woo hoo...
the customer special is buy TWO get FOUR at HALF OFF!! even better. so if you aren't familiar with lia sophia...it's your most EXPENSIVE items at HALF. how fun is THAT?!?
now i could send you a book if you need one just email me (amoschel@msn.com) your address and i'll send you one. or check out my website for the current catalog.
anyone interested in booking a show? i need shows for January and February...book a show and get another $5 off of your order. don't live by me...have a book show...you get the same great deals and still save the money.

so come on...you know you have SOMEONE, or YOURSELF...who could use some new jewelry. and as always with lia sophia...it's a lifetime replacement guarantee...that's awesome.

oh...and leave me a comment saying you talked about my little 'deal' and i'll give you $5 off your order automatically...

i really don't want to seem pushy...so i hope i wasn't. i know that there are those of you out there who would LOVE to order and can't. no biggie. just praying that you'd consider it...or leave that hubby of yours a hint. :0) any one needing gift wrapping?? i can do that too.

i appreciate your 'putting' up with this little 'plug' of mine. and appreciate any support you can give me. thanks so much...amanda

the post you've been waiting for...

...i just know it. lol. right.

so...our 'date' went well the other night. shaun's sister came and got the girls around four. and we left by five. shaun wanted to go to fleet farm, and i was excited because then we could walk around the toy aisle. i must say i felt pretty OVERDRESSED for fleet farm though. oh well. i found a puzzle for the girls. it's a leap frog puzzle, but it is of the ballet positions. so i got it for them, amelya learns them during her class. PLUS it was only 3.50!

i fed dustin before we at in the FF parking lot. and he was such a champ and waited til we were out of the melting pot to eat again. shaun enjoyed his first trip...hopefully not the last...we started out with the fiesta cheese fondue. yummy. we ordered it medium...it was more like HOT. but still good. and then salad. i don't eat salad. i'll leave grass for the cows...but they gave me a 'fruit salad' of strawberries and bananas. my two favs. the we did the 'main course' with out the shrimp. i also tried salmon...pretty good. and the curry dipping sauce. which was also good. and of course the green goddess dipping stuff for the potatoes...always yummy. and then of course dessert. we picked the 'original' which is just chocolate with chunky peanut butter. well shaun wasn't too keen on that...so i pretty much ate it all myself. yep. oh well. it was good. and then they had this 'offer' if you donated a minimum of 10 dollars to the st. jude hospital you got a 20 gift card to come back next year. so DUH. we did it. you have to use it between sunday to thursday. so ladies night anyone??!!?? shaun didn't get as excited as i do about going back, but it wasn't out of the question. so that's promising!!

yesterday we ate out with my mom's family for thanksgiving. it was a buffet in new holstein. it was pretty good. it was nicer to see my aunt who didn't make it to my sister's wedding. we don't see her that often, so it's always nice to see her. she kind of has the mean ole hubby (seriously though...i wish i weren't) who is too 'controlling' to let her come to our annual girls' weekend up north. i mean seriously what does he think is going to happen? i just don't understand. anywho. i also got to see the proofs from my sister's wedding...wanna see them too?? head on over to her photographer's site then click on on-line albums and find Kolbe Wedding. the password is AG1108C. and you do have to keep it in all capital letters.

so then yesterday we came home and did nothing. i took a nap...a much needed one. and so did shaun. the younger three were sleeping and amelya watch the barbie christmas movie. which i was so happy to see (it was like her second time watching it) that there is no santa in it. for those of you who don't know. we don't 'do' santa. i firmly believe in doing my best to not lie to my children. santa, well he's a lie. and sure it's maybe a 'small' one. but if i can lie about that, what will they think of the 'big' stuff. so that's that. plus i want them to truly know the meaning behind christmas and not confuse them with some big ole guy in a red suit. jesus is the reason we celebrate christmas and give each other gifts. i'm also thinking this year about making a birthday cake or cupcakes to help them celebrate. we'll see just how ambitious i am.

so today was mom's group. we spent most of the time chatting about this or that. but it's nice to get together and chat. and learn from each other, and ask each other for advice. plus i never realized until today that i never shared shaun's port a pot story with sherry. never heard it either. check out this post. it's a funny funny story. my poor husband. lol. and we've never heard anything about it either so we're stuck paying for it ourselves. argh. that stinks. good thing shaun has a truck that's old. but it still looks funny with no grill on it. yesterday he said he's going to try to make one himself. good thing he's handy like that.

so i suppose. i have some stuff to pick up. i've been doing my best to pick up the house every day. so that shaun comes home to a clean house. now i know i've mentioned before there are certain rooms in my house you WILL NOT see, but the ones that are seen, are usually clean for him. i feel or rather have felt lately that he should come home to a clean house. he works all day and is stressed sometimes at work, and i don't want him to feel even more overwhelmed at a messy house. the girls have been good at helping me too. so it's fun. and it actually makes me feel a bit less overwhelmed when i have a clean house...so maybe it's for both our benefits....til next time..behave. :0)

giveaway...

okay not me. but cassandra has one. and i wanna win. but you can go there and sign up and check it out too. but really i guess you don't HAVE to sign up. because if you don't then i have one more chance of winning?!?! lol. sorry. serious. go check out her super cute blog. and sign up. you know you wanna... :0) i still have to clean up lunch. so i'm off to do that. i promise to blog about our date next...i PROMISE. :0)

nope it wasn't me monday

so it's that time again! head on over to mckmama's blog for the full rules and loads of fun...so here i go...because all the girlies are still sleeping and i just may get this done in ONE sitting. lol.



so nope no way was it me changing dustin's diaper on the couch. and when i didn't look away he so didn't PEE ALL OVER the couch. and then i didn't make shaun clean it up because i was too lazy to do it myself.



i was not the one all excited to get dressed up for our date to the melting pot. i didn't get bummed when i couldn't wear my favorite perfume because it broke all over the counter a few weeks ago.



while at the melting pot i didn't giggle when a lady dropped her knife, really loudly, at the table next to us. and because i didn't do it the first time i sure didn't laugh the second time either.

while at walmart after our date, i didn't take dustin out of his carseat to carry him. and because i didn't do that i sure wasn't holding him as i FELL. and because i didn't fall i don't this big ole bruise on my knee. and i wasn't blaming my 'high heeled' boots the entire time we walked, well limped, around walmart after. (dustin is fine i didn't drop him or anything...i seriously have no idea what happened...besides me being embarrassed!!)

oh and it so was not me all excited to be NUBMER 2 last week for not me monday!! lol.

well this is short, sweet and to the point. i've gotta get moving to get ready for mom's group this morning...check back later i'll try to post about our date and weekend. toodles for now!!

ONE MONTH!

Just wanted to post Dustin's One Month Picture I took. I can't believe it has been an entire month since he arrived in our family!! It's just crazy to me how fast this time goes. So without further ado...

I've tried to take the pictures without my "auto" feature on. So it's perhaps a little darker than I wanted, but thought it turned out cute. And now I can't wait to play around with my manual features of my camera.

So that's all I really wanted for now, just wanted to share my handsome little guy. :0) but of course I AM biased. lol.

update

just have a quick minute. chantae update gage's site last night a little before midnight informing us for the need for prayer. gage had a seizure around nine last night. he seems to be responsive, but needs prayer. go check out gage's site and get the latest updates. (i figured out how to link the words. woo hoo.)

and ALSO MckMama is holding a 'fryday' contest and i wanted to enter. all i have to do is mention it, and link back to her. so i'm mentioning it. why don't YOU go check it out too.

so happy anniversary to me and shaun today. can't forget that!! lol. did you read our little how we met story yet?!? check it out here if you haven't yet. and for those of you 'new' to my blog and want to read my 'intro' why don't you check it out here lol. wow lots of links huh?? and sorry i didn't go back and edit my intro story because...well i'm too lazy right now. it's a big ole paragraph. actually a lot of my earlier posts are. so be thankful I got sick of it. lol. it's funny to read what i wrote though. like how we weren't finding out the sex of our baby (we did) and how we're 'done' having kids (we MAY NOT be) lol.

anywho. i would love to write this big ole romantic story about me and shaun and how he proposed and how romantic it was. truth is. it wasn't romantic. there really isn't a 'story'. so i won't, or really can't. i left him out a card today. with a 10 page note. he he he. as you all know i love to babble and wrote him over two days. oh well. gave him a good read this morning before work anyway. now i feel safe to say after work he'll be heading to wally world to get me MY card. it irritates me a little that it's always the DAY OF that he gets everything. maybe irritates is a bad word. but it does bug me. i don't know why really. it's not like our anniversary (or valentine's day or sweetest day or mother's day) changes every year (okay mother's day DATE does but it's still the same sunday) and these dates don't just 'appear' from no where. maybe it's a guy thing. i don't know. irritating nonetheless.

alright. i'm done. i'm tired. i feel crabby. and i don't know why. i don't want to feel this way today!! the girls' are sleeping over at shaun's sisters tonight. because our reservations aren't until 645 she asked if she should just keep them. so SURE!! she can. it'll be nice for me because shaun works tomorrow and i won't have to worry about getting them ready if he gets home close to when we have to leave for church. yay! alright, like i said before i am done now. toodles.

praising god!

go check out gage's story. (http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mittelstaedt) if you haven't already. surgery went great yesterday. and he is now in the PICU at Children's Hospital in Milwaukee. isn't our god so great!?!

that's what He's been showing me this week. how great. how perfect. how wonderful. that he truly is. and it just isn't sometimes...it's ALL the time. even when i'm feeling kind yucky and tubby...he's telling me how he made me wonderfully perfect and how beautiful i am. he knows each strand of hair on my head and his thoughts of me are like the number of grains of sand. that's a lot. and i think i must be pretty beautiful.

i've been struggling with feeling that way. I KNOW I KNOW. i just had a baby, almost a month ago, but i still feel all fat and yucky. i HATE feeling that way. i keep trying to get the enemies thoughts out of my head, but my friends, it is SO hard. i won't lie. it is hard.
BUT god.
i have to remember that.
BUT god.
BUT god makes it easier.
BUT god wins.
BUT god is good.
and then i start feeling a bit better.
because all of those things are so very true. and so very good.

well gage's super good at journaling mommy, just update while i was typing this, and it looks like gage is doing great this morning. but just keep them in your prayers. because he has a recovery ahead of him. i know chantae told me they were originally thinking about a week to week and a half down at the hospital. so that means thanksgiving in the hospital. but what a thankful thanksgiving it will be.

so today is another 'lazy' day. we have to return movies later. and then i'm going to take the kiddos by my mom and dad's for a bit. my dad won't be there, but they love seeing grandma. plus it's nice to chat with my mommy. lol. don't know the last time i called her that! lol.

tomorrow is our anniversary. FIVE YEARS! wow. god is so good. we've been through A LOT in the five years we've been together. but it's all good, even the bad stuff. i shared our 'how we got together story' awhile back. here's a link to it. http://aproudmommyof4.blogspot.com/2008/05/tuesday-already.html
i'm super excited to be going to the melting pot tomorrow. it's always fun to get all dressed up. for me anyways. i'm just hoping i can find something to wear.

well dustin is awake. and hungry. so that's it for me right now. toodles and have a super fun happy beautiful day.

please keep praying...

well i don't have much time. the kiddos' desk needs some organization, and even though lunch was HOURS ago...i still need to pick that up.

but my friend, chantae, son gage is having surgery today. while i type. please keep praying for him if you already are, and start if you haven't been. :) his site is http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mittelstaedt
so far today surgery has been going well. PRAISE THE LORD!!

thanks so much my blogging buddies for your prayers for him.

so now..off to that desk and lunch...because since i've been busy 're-doing' my blog i've got to get off the computer...speaking of 'redoing' how do i get three columns...without re adding all my widgets and such?!? anyone?!? thanks. loves to you all!

tagging fun and some firsts fun too...

okay so i'm not picking up toys. instead i'm having fun. amelya is doing her 'school books' and i decided toys can wait. so i was 'tagged' awhile back and now i'm going to do it....

this 'award' *my first by the way!! thanks Beth (http://www.theparmerfamily.blogspot.com/)* so...

Here are the rules:
Mention the blog that gave it to you and comment on their blog to let them know you've posted your award.

Publish these rules

Share 6 values that are important to you and 6 things you do not support.

Grant the prize to 6 people.

My answers -

6 Things I Value:

1. My relationship with Jesus

2. Shaun

3. My babies (Amelya, Breigh, Caitlyn, Dustin)

4. the rest of my family

5. my friends, especially my mommy ones who can relate so well with me

6. quiet times

6 Things I do not support:

1. Mean People

2. Parents who are afraid to discipline their children

3. Mean Kids, especially that mean girl at mcdonald's today, leave my amelya alone

4. Fighting

5. leaving the cover off of markers...argh. i do not like that.

6. cutting of gum out of hair, breigh did that yesterday. i did the cutting she did the gumming.

Ill pass this on to:

my lovely sister...Amy http://agk11808.blogspot.com/

my lovely cousin...Ashley http://journalattemptonemillion.blogspot.com/

and my lovely blogging buddies:

Danielle http://breckheimerfamily.blogspot.com/

Jess http://jandjkeys.blogspot.com/

City Mom AND Country Mom http://citymomcountrymom.blogspot.com/

I'm not 'all cool' and don't know how to just make your names the links...sorry. but have fun anyways...

And Renee over at http://www.myspecialks.com/ did this fun post today...so i thought i would too. obviously i'm still trying to get out of picking up my house...

1. Who was your FIRST prom date? Jessie. And my mom wasn't home to take pictures, and got all mad because we didn't take 'good' ones...lol...

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? No.

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?YUCK! It was Kessler's or something. All I remember it was burning all the way down and burned my chin too. I'm so glad I don't drink.

4. What was your FIRST job?Babysitting. I babysat these two kids from the time I was 12 until I got married, at 20. My first 'real' job was a bagger at the grocery store. I was so happy when I got moved to Check-out. I 'dreamed' of that since I was little, I soon learned it was not as cool as I thought!

5. What was your FIRST car? Pontiac Grand Prix. It was a funny teal color, but it was MINE!

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today? Melissa

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? Which time this morning? I was up at Midnight with Amelya (just to cover her up) 230 to feed Dustin, 5ish to cover up Amelya again, 530 to feed Dustin again, 6ish hoping Caitlyn would go back to sleep, she did. and finally 745 when Breigh and Amelya woke up.

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?Mrs. Schweitzer. I thought it was cool that she had the same last name as my great-grandma and wanted to be related to her...that's weird!!

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Washington State to visit my bestest friend, Chantae. It was the summer before my freshman year of high school. All I remember is reading a book and cute boys in front of me. lol

10. Who was your FIRST best friend and are you still friends with them? Naomi. we were only friends til 7th grade, i don't know why we 'broke up'. but we talk now and then because she works at the bank we go to.

11. What was your FIRST sport played?I played Volleyball in 7th grade. I remember being all happy because i was on the "a" team.

12. Where was your FIRST sleep over? I'm sure Naomi's house. I don't remember i guess.

13. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? Amelya, shortly after Midnight.lol

14. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? My baby-sitter's. I was in 4th grade, and thought I was super cool. I remember my feet turning green from our dyeable shoes.

15. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?Again which time?!? lol. Covered Amelya, Fed Dustin etc etc etc

16. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?Ummm don't know. Poor Baker's Dozen and Apologetics I think was the first real concert.

17. FIRST tattoo or piercing? Got my ears pierced before I was two. don't remember.

18. FIRST foreign country you went to? boo hoo. never been outta the country. that stinks.

19. What was your FIRST run in with the law?Hmmm I think it was when my cousin and a friend doorbell ditched my neighbors (who were crazy and had the cops at THEIR HOUSE all the time) well they called the cops and the cop came over and yelled at ME even though my cousin wasn't there. my parents weren't home and I called my dad crying. they came home and called the cop who harrassed us and my dad yelled at the cop for being mean to me. yeah. cool dad.

20. When was your FIRST detention?Never had detention, nope sorry I really didn't.

21. What was the FIRST state you lived in? Wisconsin.

22. Who was the FIRST person to break your heart? David. meanie had my FRIEND tell me he wanted to break up. we were 8th grade come on GROW UP!

23. Who was your FIRST roommate? my sister and i shared a room for awhile

24. Where did you go on your FIRST limo ride? drove around. no destination that i remember. it was a secret for my grandparents wedding anniversary.

Wanna try? Consider yourself tagged!Link back to me and leave a comment here when you post so I can be nosey... because that's what I like to be. lol. but seriously will you?!?

Oh that WAS FUN!! try it. come on. you know you want to. but i suppose. i've stalled long enough. off to clean up a bit. probably. :)

wednesday

already?!? wow. this week has gone by quickly already.

although last night i was thinking it was SO SLOOOW of a week. yesterday was a long day. we had dance in the morning. and we barely made it there on time. poor time management on my part nothing else. then we went to the family resturaunt. and then target. then the chiro. then because i didn't want to go to walmart by myself, with the kids, i went to my mom's house and went to walmart by myself. then after we got home the girls were all cranky. and i was exhausted. i also had to make supper while dealing with all of it. and all supper was, was hot dogs with garlic crescent rolls wrapped around them. (hard huh?)

so needless to say, i wouldn't 'let' shaun go plow our field until the kids were in bed. and they were in bed by 815. their normal bedtime is usually 830 or after. but i think they were just as exhausted as i was. (and they all slept til almost eight this morning, and i woke caitlyn up a little before nine!)

i missed sleeping with shaun for most of the night though. he didn't get in the house til after midnight and had to be to work by five again this morning. he's had to go in early all week. and hasn't gotten home til after six either all week. so he's the one who should be exhausted!! and apparently when he came to bed he was cold. he touched me and i freaked out at him. i vaugely remember telling him something. apparently i said, get the heck away from me you're cold! i feel bad for freaking out, but i don't remember it. does that help? who knows.

thanks for all your prayers for my little caitlyn. her fever is FINALLY gone today. and she seems to be feeling better today. she even ate something. (mcdonald's chicken nuggets...lol) but that's a start anyways. we had story time today and went to mcd's with maddie. it's kind of a tradition i guess. we go there once a week with them. either on monday after mom's group or wednesday after storytime. i guess i enjoy the time with melissa and the girls all enjoy playing together...or getting it 'trouble' like last week, but that was at a pizza place not mcd's. so it's nice to get together and chat with someone.

my kitchen is way super clean. well not the kitchen itself but the cupboards are. i got my big messy one all cleaned out. the one that's in the rachael ray video. (missed it? go down a few days and find the link...i'm too lazy to relink it...) i had tons of old food in a lot of my cupboards. but it feels nice to have them all organized. even though no one else can really see that they are unless they're going through my cupboards...which would be kind of weird too i guess....so regardless they're clean.

i also need to pick up toys. the younger three are sleeping and i need to 'organize' the playroom again. or at least everything is where it belongs. it's gotta be that old day care teacher in me. everything has it's own place...now if i can only apply that to the rest of my house....hmmm there's a concept. an entirely organzied house...hmmm...almost seems boring to me. lol. only because i know it may never happen...at least for a long while...and wanna know something? i don't really care. too much.

so last night i had a crazy dream. i had 15 children. yep 15. all i can remember is that i kept counting them to make sure i had them all. crazy?!? yep. take away a one and maybe that'll be better. lol. 5. would i be able to 'handle' five children? hmm. i think so. but i also think i'm going to wait awhile...at least a year...hopefully...we all know what happened last time i said that. i was pregnant way sooner than with the others...but in all seriousness, kind of, i think my body needs a break. it'll protest. if it could. but i also know that 'if' and that's a BIG IF we have another baby, whenever it comes it will be in GOD'S PERFECT TIMING. because like god his timing and plan is always just that...perfect. absolutely perfect.

as i look at my babies i know that. he planned it all out. perfectly. as i 'stress' i know it's only a short time. soon my babies won't be babies. and then i'll be wondering what i ever 'stressed' about. so i enjoy each and every milisecond i've been given with these wonderfully perfectly made babies. because my god is wonderfully perfect.

not not not for sure not me monday

well of course as always from www.mycharmingkids.net it's not me monday. here are the things i for sure did not do this week...

...i absolutely didn't laugh when breigh said "i need to take my shirt off" while trying to nurse her baby...and before she did that i didn't giggle when she asked ME to NURSE her baby doll

i didn't giggle when after explaining to amelya that we put money in the red bucket for people who don't have money and she said "but we don't have money"

i absolutely didn't find it highly amusing when at pizza hut our waitress had the audacity to FLIRT with my HUSBAND right in FRONT OF ME!! when we had TWO of our FOUR children with us!! i didn't almost bust a gut laughing when she leaned against the wall, flipped her hair and asked very interestingly flirty "would you like some more mountain dew" i didn't giggle more when both times i left the table she found a reason to immediately come check on my HUSBAND. i so didn't only leave a few dollar tip either because of all of this. i also did not tell this amusing story to everyone i could after it happened!!

i didn't sit last week at mom's group and say "if i could be guaranteed a boy, i'd for sure have one more baby". i then didn't contemplate 'e' baby names for a boy or a girl (emilee or eli). i also didn't laugh at shaun after telling him the story when he walked out of the room with his hand up and shaking his head.

shaun and i didn't talk last night about what we're going to do about having anymore babies. and then we didn't decide we're not doing anything permanent because NEITHER of us are too sure if FOUR is ENOUGH...crazy? probably. :0) (for first time readers...we just had our fourth baby in about three and a half years)

i absolutely didn't blush when my husband sent me a text saying 'love you babe' because my husband is ALWAYS like that and it was NOT the first time EVER he sent a text saying that. i also am not so excited that for our anniversary next saturday (five years praise the lord) he suggested going to eat at THE MELTING POT!! when he asked if we could 'afford' it i didn't say i'll make it work!

my husband didn't make me feel all 'giddy' inside when he kissed me in SAM'S CLUB...and he absolutely didn't do it TWO TIMES! and i wasn't the one all silly and said while grocery shopping "i'll tator your tot" when he said we needed tator tots. ((side note: it was like the first 'us' time in awhile...even though we had dustin with us...and we were feeling all silly i guess...and had lots fo fun...grocery shopping!! lol...))

i didn't giggle when at old navy shaun said 'you've dressed our girls for years, now i get to dress one' because he kept telling me all the stuff i was picking out for dustin was too preppy. by the way it wasn't...it was way super cute!! while at old navy i didn't get all excited when i used my 30% off coupon and saved almost fifty bucks!!

this morning i didn't tell amelya at 704 it was too early to get up and go back to sleep...just so i could go back in bed for a bit...it worked though she slept til way after eight!!

wow lots about my husband this week! it should be not shaun monday i guess. lol. so anyways.

please keep my little caity in your prayers...she's been running a fever of 102 since yesterday. not feeling good at all.

and my friend's son gage (http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mittelstaedt) had his surgery moved to thursday, lord willing. please keep him in your prayers too!!

so because i have a sick little baby drinking milk in the high chair and two other girlies done eating breakfast...dustin...well he's just in my lap. :) i'm going to leave you all with a shorter not me monday in awhile...

yummy yummy in my tummy

i just wanted to let ya'll know that the rachael ray recipe was super yummy. go ahead and make it. :0) today we're going grocery shopping and to sam's club and old navy, because i got a 30% off coupon. and the girlies are going by grandma's so it's just us and dustin. that'll make for some easier shopping. but that's all for now. toodles.

peace and quiet.

it's pretty peaceful in our house. amelya is playing my 'pbs' which is actually my nintendo DS, and yes i said MINE. and the three little ones are sleeping.

a friend and her daughter came over today. the girls had fun playing with izzy. but breigh was exhausted, hence the napping now. caitlyn was up early. hence the almost four hour nap now. and dustin, well he's three weeks old...what'd you expect? lol

oh and me you ask? i'm tired. half contemplating a nap myself. but i know dustin will want to eat soon and caitlyn will wake up as soon as my eyes shut.

there's a tape of criminal minds i need to watch. and yes i said tape. my mom taped it with her VCR the other night, and i'll watch it on my VCR. we still have those you know. so it's calling my name. i love that show. but instead of watching it wednesday i went out to eat at hu hot. um yeah. i'd rather eat at hu hot and watch the tape. plus i can fast forward through commercials.

last night i went to a purse party. and bought three purses. but stayed under the 150 dollar limit. (by 12 dollars even) i'm good on purses for awhile. at least a few months.

my neighbor and her kids came over yesterday. we've a few busy days of little friends. the girls love their little friends though.

in fact the girls got in trouble with their little friend on wednesday. they were playing by the games at the local pizza place. and we were all at our table talking. (the friends mommy and my sister and her HUSBAND ((that's weird yet)) ) so i saw the owner walk back by them and melissa went to check on what was going on...well one of the games were broke and the door was open...so our three girls decided to empty out the tickets...all over the game room...um yeah. oops. so stifling laughter, because really it is funny, i told the girls it was wrong and made them apologize to the owner. she smiled and actually laughed too. and said it was the game people's fault for not locking to door again. so it was okay...and funny...but the girls didn't get a bouncy ball because of it...and breigh wasn't happy...but they were not behaving well by emptying out the game.

i probably could've been more creative telling that story, but i'm tired. forgive me. tonight i'm actually making a yummy supper, hopefully, i got of the rachael ray show. here's the link to the recipe because i'm too lazy to type it out: http://www.rachaelrayshow.com/food/recipes/sloppy-joe-manicotti/

did i ever tell you i was on the rr show?? i know i did...but wanna watch my segment? and see my kitchen?? here's a link to that too...http://www.rachaelrayshow.com/show/segments/view/worst-kitchen-in-america-search-day-2/
to tell you the truth, my cupboard still looks like that! but we did buy a new stove with the 500 gift card from sara lee.

alright enough linking, i'm off to watch criminal minds now. have a great weekend. shaun doesn't have to work. super big excited!! that's me...

dreary morning

**warning** i'm updating on caitlyn's dr's appt yesterday and there is lots of talk about poop and anus, if that bugs you skip the first paragraph...

it's a dreary wisconsin morning. kind of fits my mood. i'm tired and dreary. but i wanted to let you all know about caitlyn's dr. appt yesterday. we met with the GI doc again and then with the pediatric surgeon to see if surgery is something that is needed right now. the GI doc and surgeon both feel surgery is NOT needed. caitlyn has been managing well on her own, well with the help of miralax. but the miralax is keeping her soft and going mostly everyday. in the past month i think there has been one or two days she has not gone. but went three times the day before. the doc feels that she is doing well enough to not do surgery NOW. surgery is still an option, IF things change, or if she starts getting UTI's. then it seem that surgery would be better than not. the only thing that she has to do is continually be on miralax. that is something that will probably not change. as she gets older she may be able to control it with her diet, but for now we're keeping her on the miralax, to make sure things stay soft. the surgeon drew us a picture of what her insides look like. it's basically like she has a "shelf" that she has to push her poop over, hence the constipation. 'normal' people have a straight shoot. she doesn't. it's because her anus is anterior placed. she has a minor form of an imperforate anus. but that's okay because imperforate anus is MUCH worse. the surgeon also said that all of her muscles are around her anus and she can squeeze good. sometimes people have their muscles all in front or behind the anus. he said that surgery, right now, probably wouldn't be of much help to her. so now we continue to pray that god keeps her soft and regular and that we'll never have to have surgery. she'll probably never be able to deliver her babies naturally, but god can fix that too, so we trust and pray and pray and trust continually.

dustin is three weeks old today. it is so hard to believe that three weeks have gone by since we had him. he's just as good of a baby as his sisters. we've been so incredibly blessed by good babies!! he gets up between 2 and 3 am and then again between 5 and 6. so really not too bad, but i'm still tired!! yesterday i got a nap in with him before amelya and breigh got home.

so because i'm not ready to divulge lots of details, and i'm not sure if i will ever, please just keep our family in your prayers. there's a little bit of drama happening and i'm not able to 'deal' with it by myself. i need god's help and your prayers to help me through it. it's nothing life threatening or anything bad like that. but it's a situation that needs to be dealt with. and quite honestly i hate having to deal with it right now. i'm just not 'in the mood'. so remember us in your prayers. thanks and sorry to 'leave you hanging'.

mommyhood calls me now. so i must be going. til next time my friends be good. :0)

not me monday...the wedding version...

...it seems i've been able to have a 'theme' for my not me's lately...kind of fun that way. anywho. my sister's wedding was this past saturday...and here are things i absolutely did not do while planning for and during the wedding...

it's not me who, for the last several weeks, have been putting chapstick on so i don't get cold sores or chapped lips for the wedding, because it for sure mattered what I looked like in pictures...

it wasn't me who so didn't fit into my dress last monday, and it wasn't my dress that needed to be way way let out so i might fit into it by wednesday...and on wednesday i was not relieved that the dress fit...even if i felt a little chubby

it wasn't me who debated the pros and cons about being nine months pregnant or two weeks post partum in a bridesmaid dress...because i couldn't change it anyways

it wasn't me breastfeeding dustin in my pedicure chair while getting pedicures...oh wait it was...and it hu hot too...i don't care where i feed him!...but it wasn't me who felt happy when a lady commented to me at hu hot how she was proud of me for breastfeeding my son in public. i didn't say...but the fourth kid i don't care where i have to feed...

and at hu hot...i didn't get a piece of cheesecake...and i sure didn't eat the entire huge piece of it either, because i wasn't full from the buffet

at rehearsal it wasn't me who realized i had forgotten wrapping stuff for the gift and had to go back to walmart after ten, when possibly creepy people could be wandering around...

at rehearsal dinner it wasn't me who had two turkey sandwiches even though i was full after one, just because the turkey was so yummy...i have self control...

saturday morning i didn't stress when my aunt who picked me up didn't call and just showed up so we weren't quite ready to go yet

saturday after my mom got dustin dressed in his little suit i so didn't almost tear up because he looked so darn handsome

while getting ready i so didn't have to put some spanx on under my dress to help me feel a bit less chubby

i didn't call shaun like five times to bring stuff that i forgot to bring...because i always remember everything

at the church i didn't stress just a little when my husband didn't show up until ten to one...i didn't giggle when he said "it took me longer than i thought to get them dressed" lol...i did giggle

before the ceremony started and a guy walked in late i didn't say...that's the real groom...and we didn't sit and hold back laughter either...because the priest wasn't walking down the aisle already

when amelya walked down the aisle all by herself and drop petals all by herself i so didn't almost break down and bawl because she was so beautiful

during the ceremony i wasn't giggling and talking with my fellow bridesmaids...while sitting in the pew...nope we were quiet...

when the priest said "happy wife?" it wasn't me who answered "happy life" and be like the only one who answered...

after the ceremony i didn't almost beg the photographer to take our group picture next because dustin needed to eat...

i didn't uncomfortably 'roll' the front of my dress down to nurse him in the back pew of the church...i didn't feel a bit weird being half naked in church...

after church we didn't run through mcdonald's so i could get a large coke and french fries...i didn't almost eat the entire large fry by myself either

at the reception i didn't just watch my little girls boogie on down and stand in awe at god and how blessed i am to be given such beautiful gifts

during supper i didn't get irritated when people were being rude and talking during my speech, then when someone said they couldn't hear and everyone got quiet i didn't say maybe it was you who was loud and that's why you couldn't hear me...i didn't start my speech over again either...

at the reception i didn't get so happy when my super great cousin took a picture of me and shaun dancing with my camera (thanks ashley)

at the reception i so didn't bust a gut laughing at breigh dance...

before the wedding was over i didn't laugh at amelya for falling alseep while standing by a chair

wow! there was a lot this time. i've uploaded pics to facebook. but i'll share the link here. i'm also linking to a few other albums from facebook from my cousin. enjoy enjoy enjoy!! i've gone on long enough on the not me's so that's all i'll do for now. ;O)

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=41975&l=cb31a&id=508028986

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2101438&l=a32a5&id=185005991

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2101435&l=dc4eb&id=185005991

exhausted.

we're all super exhausted. we've had a super busy weekend. i'm going to keep this short too. sorry. but i promise i'll be back tomorrow for not me monday-wedding edition. :0)

friday went well. saturday went well. today went well. overall it was a well well well weekend. :0) i just wanted to let you all know i'm alive and....you guessed it...well.

like i said i'm super exhausted. and while i have a bit of time to rest...that's what i'm doing. i promise to post pictures soon and will post tomorrow for sure for not me monday. so stay well til then. i'll be back when i'm less exhausted. loves....

it's friday...already

wow. i can't believe i've left you all hanging ALL week...sorry about that. and this post is going to be quick because i've/we've gotta busy busy day ahead of us.

the wedding is TOMORROW. that means i've been doing 'wedding stuff' a lot this week. my dress fitting was not so good...on monday...wednesday the dress at least fit...but i feel a little tubby and not the least bit pretty...so i ask my praying blogging friends please just pray for me about the dress and feeling pretty. i don't want to spend the day feeling yucky and tubby. i KNOW i had a baby two weeks ago. but i don't want to 'look good for just having a baby' i just want to 'look good'. i know i'm going to hear the ...for just having a baby..comment. but i don't want to. it doesn't make me feel better. okay so that's my rant on that.

amelya is excited to wear her dress. and i'm sure she'll look like a little princess. i'm excited to see her. breigh and caitlyn will be all cute in their 'fu-fu' dresses too. and of course my little man will look oh so handsome in his suit outfit. and my hubby...he'll probably look all cute too. i'm hoping to sneak a dance with him at least once at the wedding. don't know if that'll happen with four kids in tow. or we all can dance...very romantic...

we're off to get pedi's today. i'm bringing all four kids with me. breigh wants her toes done too so if i'm bringing three i might as well bring four. my friend offered to watch breigh and caitlyn and that is what i was thinking...til breigh wanted her nails done. so fine...i'll bring them all. on tuesday i went to target...by myself...with ALL of them. yay. it went well. and today while my mom is getting a mani before our pedi i'm going to the mall with them!! only because i have to pick up something for my mom and that will kill some time.

so okay boring post. but you know i'm alive. i have to get ready now for the day. i doubt i'll be back before sunday. and i'll try to post pics asap!! please just keep us in your prayers for a successful easy day for all of us involved...and that dustin doesn't need to eat until after church is over...and that i can figure out a way to nurse in my dress!! :0)

not me monday...the quick version

well i'm afforded a quick minute to blog again...this 'fall back an hour thing' has my two oldest girlies up before seven again!! so i guess it's given me time to shower and look presentable before the two little ones get up...so i'll do my not me's and see where i get...mckmama (www.mycharmingkids.net) wasn't sure if she was doing hers after having her little baby last week, but i have time, so i'm doing mine...plus it's fun..

so it wasn't me who teared up while reading mckmama's blog about her beautiful baby stellan, and then sit and reminsice about my own baby's births...because truly they're all miracles...

it wasn't me who cried when shaun said he had to work late on saturday, because i wasn't looking forward to getting out of the house for a little bit...even with all four kids (well okay it is true i did cry, i already told you i did on saturday...oops)

it wasn't me so happy to hear that we could still go to appleton saturday even though shaun worked til five, and i wasn't happy to just leave the house for a bit as a family

i wasn't happy when someone made a NICE comment about us and all our kids...

it absolutely wasn't me who teared up this morning while reading a comment on my post from saturday, it isn't me who feels 'special' that someone who doesn't even KNOW me cares enough to share her heart, and messy house, with me...i LOVE blogging buddies...especially ones who whole heartedly admit to having a messy house JUST LIKE ME!!

diapers on the living room floor?? NEVER NOT ME!!

dishes in the sink??? NOPE NOPE NOPE

laundry...clean and dirty in piles in various rooms of my house??? GASP! NEVER EVER!

toys that didn't get picked up before bed??? ABSOLUTELY NOT

hmmm...that felt good.

i'm going to mom's group today. i'm excited. there's a 'mentor mom' speaking, so that's always fun. after mom's group we're going to gage's house for a bit. it'll be nice to get together with him, and his mommy of course, again. keep gage in your prayers too please. he has a sedated echo this week and could possibly be having surgery next week. visit this site: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mittelstaedt to read all about gage's story
i'm also going for my first dress fitting today....i was brave at my mom's house yesterday and stood on the scale for the first time since having dustin...i did it with all my clothes and shoes on...usually i take the shoes off anyway...and i was 204 when i went in with dustin, yesterday i was 185. i was pretty excited. now i'd still like to lose 25-30 more pounds...but i think in two weeks losing 20, okay 19, that's pretty good. i was about 175 when i got pregnant, then i lost 10 pounds at the beginning. but since i'm 'pretty sure' i'm done having babies...at least for a long while...i'd like to get to 155-160ish. but no hurry. i've never been in a 'hurry' to lose weight. i am not a good dieter...plus i'm too picky of an eater. i've just been so far trying to cut back on soda and snacking...but will afford myself a snack if i'm hungry for it. lol

well caitlyn is awake. so my blogging break is over...hope you all have a super fantastic monday...

a quick quiet moment...

...it's pretty quiet hear at the moment. breigh and caitlyn just went down for their naps and now i wait for dustin to wake up from his to eat. and amelya...well she's just hanging out. and my husband you ask...well he's working. the 'plan' was to be done by noon. because we have stuff to get done here at home, and shopping to do for the wedding next week. well the 'plan' was changed. something is majorly broke at the farm...which means a later day than normal for a saturday...



...when shaun called and gave me the heads up, truthfully, i cried. must be the hormones. then i 'sucked it up' and prayed. and god has now given me peace and calmness about it all. and i also realized it's much better for this to have happened today than tomorrow and shaun would have to miss church. the grass can get longer today..who cares. i'm hoping that it still isn't too late and that we can go shopping. we need to get shaun an outfit to wear for the wedding next weekend. usually he just wears polo shirts and nice pants, but i feel since me and the girls and dustin are going to be all nice looking, he should be too. i also want to find the girls some sweaters to wear with their dresses. that way if it's cool at church or the hall they'll be warm. i'm excited to see them all dressed up. i'm hoping dustin's outfit fits. the size is big, but it's the smallest size i could get. we also need to find a gift for my sister and grant. amelya suggested a card. i said sure we can do that...but we need a present for the card!



amelya and breigh had fun with nana the other night. they didn't get back til late yesterday afternoon. i was happy to see them. it's amazing how quiet the house is without the two of them. it was weird to not have anyone to talk to and answer me back too. caitlyn enjoyed the alone time with us though. it was nice to have that special mommy and me time with her yesterday morning. caitlyn is getting adjusted to her little brother. i feel bad that she's still a baby herself, and now has to share the spotlight with another baby. but she's handling it quite well, and i'm quite happy.



dustin is doing super good. he's adjusted his eating to eating at around 1030-1100 when i go to bed, or rather wake up on the couch and move to the bed. and then he's been getting up around 3-330 to eat. then not again til 630 or later! it's super nice. so really he's getting up only once a night. because i COULD get up after he does at 630 but have choosen to enjoy a bit more rest. this morning i got to sleep til 730. one problem him getting up at 630 poses however, is waking up caitlyn. yeah. my secret is out. caitlyn is still sleeping in our room. in a pack and play. and that is another thing i wanted done this weekend, moving her out and in with the girls. but the girls' room poses yet another 'problem'. clothes. all over. in piles. some in totes. mostly folded. i have clothes from size 6-9 months all the way up to a tote full of clothes too big for amelya. i would love to get their room clean. but now...find me the time. when breigh and caitlyn are napping i'd have plenty of time...however breigh naps in her room. so that's out. when shaun gets home it's late and i want family time. so that's out. after the girls' go to bed...well you get the picture. but now it needs to be done, we were planning on doing it, and shaun's working. ahhh. i am not an organized person by any means. well i am in some stuff...others i'm not.
if you came to my house you wouldn't be offered a tour, and if you asked...well don't...because i don't know what i'd say. at any rate...i wouldn't give you a tour. my laundry room has clothes in piles, of mine and shauns. and there's lots of other things that need to be gone through. however i'm a little scared to do it at this time of the year, i don't want to see a mouse...or a rat...we had rats last year! yuck. so that means it'll wait. our room has boxes of boy clothes all sorted out by size. and a dresser that used to be in my room at my parent's house...it's just randomly placed, not being used. and let's see another dresser, a night stand. and then there's our bed, bassinet and pack and play all set up too. i'd LOVE to get our room and the girls' room organized ASAP. then there is one more room upstairs that will be dustin's room. it's still has stuff in it from when it was shaun's bedroom growing up! dustin's room can wait a few months anyways. i usually leave them in the bassinet next to our bed for awhile. so lord willing in a few months i'll have an organized upstairs...THEN that only leaves the laundry room that's a disaster. hey not too bad. i'll give myself...a year...i know that's a long time..but i'm a busy mommma...so a year...then you can come over for a tour...of my ENTIRE house...not just the parts i want you to see. since we've had the playroom done, i've had a clean downstairs. there has been a few days of dishes on the cupboards and some stuff on the dining room table. but that's it. god is so good. i just keep praying for ambition and a clean house. and so far he's helped me do that.

well i took a break to feed dustin and now i should shower, since i've been afforded the time to. so i'm off to finish cleaning up lunch...blogging took a front seat to that..lol..but now blogging goes back to the back seat and i get back to a bit of reality.